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for some reason her stomach fluttered as she got up the following morning.
she felt an urge to finish her morning rutine faster than usual,
which meant she was in exeptionally good time when she sat down to eat her breakfast,
the last thing she did before leaving. her mother came into the kitchen and stopped in the middle of a yawn to look at her and laugh.
"worried you might be late again?" she asked as she reached for a coffee cup.
iz flushed a bright red and looked at her tea mug. "yeah" she said, positive that she was lying.
but she didn't know the cause for it, until she found herself running toward the train station,
her jacket under her arm and her boots barely on. she sighed and slowed to a walk, a fast walk,
and concidered the effect this total stranger now had on her.
she shook her head at her self and forced her feet to move more slowly.
as she walked through the doors and found herself standing in front of the stairs her stomach was dancing.
she felt like she might be sick, and wondered why the feeling wasn't pleasant as it had been in her dream.
was she so nervous to see him again that it was making her sick? she wondered.
she walked slowly up the stairs, expecting him to show up any minute.
but when she reached the end of stairs there was no sign of him, let alone anyone.
she was so early that none of the people who usually took the train had bothered to arrive at the station yet.
her lower lip pushed out into a pout as she went to sit on one of the benches,
putting her jacket on and tying her boots properly, feeling the cold of the morning now.
she tried to control the crushing feeling of dissapointment that filled her body
and was focusing very hard on fighting the very unnecessary
and quite embarresing tears that were under way, when she felt a thump on the bench she was sitting on.
someone had sat down next to her. she peered out through her hair to make sure this person wasn't looking at her,
concerned about her obvious mood and her breath caught in her throat.
next to her on this old, rusty and half broken bench was something out of a fairytale.
extremely pale skin, a honey colored hairdo that was a bit messy compared to the white shirt
and the beige coat that was standing open, dispite the cold.
and as this person turned to look at her, something in her fell into place.
the beautiful pale blue eyes seemed to look right through her and into her at the same time.
seemed to know everything she was thinking and feeling,
which made it so embarresing to look at them, made her flush hard,
but even so she didn't look away. she was caught and there was nothing to do.
unless he became awkward by the situation
and what could only be a dumpfonded expression on her face, the stare she was locked in,
and looked away, there was nothing she could do. and he didn't look away.
his mouth turned up into a crooked smile and he seemed to understand this wierd facination she had with him.
when he looked away, possibly realising she wasn't able to, she sucked in a huge breath and tried to calm her racing puls.
she could feel it so hard in her skull it was almost a migrane.
"hi" he said, as if he hadn't noticed any of her odd bahavior.
"hi" she breathed unable to do any better than repeat what he said.
she focused to hard on her breathing, trying to make it even and normal,
that she didn't notice until it was too late that he had moved closer to her. she felt dizzy, almost faint.
"how are you this morning?" he didn't look at her as he spoke,
which made it easier for her to respond normally, not beeing hypnotized by his eyes.
she pulled herself together enough to give him an answer that was more than one syllable.
"better, i got up at the right time this morning". he smiled a bit.
"so no bumping into people on the stairs?" she wondered idly where this conversation was going.
"no, not today" she exhaled slowly. he was only inches away,
almost touching his thigh to hers on the bench.
the morning air seemed to help clear her head for a second
and she plucked up the courage to turn her head toward him and look him in the eyes.
big mistake. "i'm glad" he smiled and her stomach twisted.
it was easier to look at him 3rd time, but she still wanted to pass out in his lap.
"how come i've never seen you here before?" she asked,
logic finally overpowering all the stupid emotions clouding her head.
"i just moved here" he said, looking away from her again,
releasing her from the hypnotics of his eyes. she took a deep breath, not sure when she'd get the opportunity again.
"oh" was all she could manage. a train rolled in behind them, and he got up.
he was going the opposite direction. she felt her lower lip betraying her, as she fighted not to sulk again.
at least till' he was gone. "maybe i'll see you tomorrow" he smiled and seemed to release all his hypnotic powers on her.
she opened her mouth slightly but nothing came out, so she nodded like an incompetent moron
and he turned to enter his train. as soon as he was out of sight,
she put her head between her knees and focused on her breathing, making sure she remembered how.
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